Monday, September 28, 2009

bummed [day 90]

I'm not sure what's gotten into me lately, but I've had a big case of the blues for the past 3 or 4 days. Everything is frustrating and I'm just not feeling well. When I went into surgery three months ago, I had no idea all of this would be lasting so long. What's wrong with me? Why am I healing so slowly?

I still have my sinus infection. I was off antibiotics for 2 days and it was back in full force. Dr. Lee says if it continues to see my primary care doctor and to have the doctor page her personally (I now have her office, cell phone, and pager numbers... what a cool surgeon).

I'm still frustrated with my looks. I don't like my upper lip and I really don't like what my nose looks like. I thought it would go down, but it's still upwards - now I can see into my nose in most pictures.

I'm getting lots of pain and popping and clicking in my jaw, and my jaw exercises are not doing anything anymore. I know I'm not quite doing them as much as I'm supposed to be (I should be doing 4 times a day, I do 2)... But they give me really bad headaches and I hate going to school with headaches. I do them when I get home from work and before bed.

I still feel like I don't have as much energy as I did pre-op. I went to an amazing indoor water park on Friday night and after a few hours of climbing up the stairs for the water slides my hip gave up on me... No more slides for Stephanie! And then at the fair the next day I was tired after just a few hours (I usually spend a whole day there), and then barely made it through the Oktoberfest party I went to that night - ended up stealing a chair from someone and just sitting for most of the night (looking at people's backs, as everyone was standing and facing away from me). After that weekend 'o' fun I could barely keep my eyes open during my planning period today.

I have an orthodontist appointment tomorrow. After my emergency appointment a few weeks back they stuck me in a new rubberband configuration to stop the over-correcting of my bite, but now the overbite is re-showing and my teeth barely hit my bumpers anymore. My back teeth don't even come close to touching.

Will these braces ever come off? :( Sorry to be such a downer, but MAN I've been taking this really rough lately. I just want to be back to normal.


dmichele78 said...

Stephanie, I know I don't have much experience with all of this because I'm only 12 days post op, but I've looked through all of your before and after pics and you look really great! I wouldn't post this if I didn't think so-- you don't even know me, but I've been following your blog. It seems like you've really come a long way and you're definitely aloud to have a few bad days. I'm sure everything will be back to normal soon, but it was alot of surgery you had to have-- give yourself a break! You really do look great...

funkyrhodes said...

Hey Steph, I'm so sorry you're going through this!


I wish I can do something to help you. FWIW, I don't see anything wrong or "off" with your upper lip and nose.

I'm really hoping that your doctor can figure out how to quell that nasty sinus infection of yours pronto! You've had that sucker for too long now.

Are you getting the pain/popping/clicking sensations when you normally move your mouth (i.e. eating, talking, etc), or just when you do the exercises? Maybe you can verify that you're doing them the right way, just in case.

It seems like you have a few more obstacles to maneuver before you complete this little course, but I hope you will get the help and support you need to get through this! Let us know how to ortho appointment went!

Take care,


Kristi said...

Oh Hon, This Too Shall Pass.

You'll heal, and you'll be beautiful, but then again, you already are! You've come so far, it's only a little bit further...